The hell it is!!

im so sick of this. but its my fault. i mean, how can i be so foolish to open a video file that has a ".exe" extension and only 142kb (approximate) !?!? i should have just deleted that F****** thing. now im having a hell lot of problems with my laptop and its BRAND NEW ****!!! ugh!! this frustration in going beyond the limits! iv seen the blue screen so may times and i manage to spot 4 different problems.. that is a LOT to me. iv done PLENTY, and i mean PLENTY of scanning with various software to detect malwares, spywares, viruses, worms etc. NONE of them showed any infection. iv even done memory scanning and some other scanning cant remember, they reveal no problems. so why the hell the blue screen keeps coming? **** right? it only comes after a few seconds windows loads to the desktop. like its a worm, tryna take over the system over and over but due to some form of resistance, it cant ( based on what my friend said ). iv even restored my OS completely back to factory settings and it didn't solve the problem. my last choice is im gona use Kaspersky Rescue Disk. if that fails to work, i have no choice but do what iv been trying to avoid and hate the most, send it to a shop for diagnosis. so u might ask me, why all the fuss? because i DONT  want to reformat. ok? keep it there.. i said it.. iv done countless number of research regarding this problem. apparently blue screen problems are hard to troubleshoot, well yes they definitely are. this is a new laptop so it couldn't be any hardware problem. im sure the file that i opened made this ******* mess. *SIGH* ............ i can only hope for the best. iv made good use of this laptop. loosing it or any data inside it is not an option. and also my dad bought it for me with hard-earned money. ok thats it.................................. *praying*

misleading thoughts due to confusion and doubts..

u know... this happened to me a lot of times.. but i know that its all emotions and feelings... i have to fight it no matter what.. this concerns about one thing, and im not gona tell you.. lets just keep it till there.. the doubts and confusions are about one "thing" ... sorry if i have confused you at the beginning already.. i keep telling myself that this world is humongous.. enormous.. gigantic... BIG.... its just big..... and in reality, it really is big... but sometimes, the pressure exerted on me makes me feel like this world no bigger than my bedroom! like, im stuck in the same place.. got nowhere else to go to look for answers to all of my questions floating around my private spaces.. but then when i take some time to think, i can slowly see the world expanding back to its original size which is, big.... yea.... so this means, that there are always possibilities that we can find to look for solutions to our problems.. u think the number people on earth is infinite? no... they decrease and increase every second..just like chances... they come and go.... when we have any opportunity, we should grab it... but sometimes, we grab it too soon and in the end we make no use of it, or it becomes bad... THIS is what im afraid of.. this has to do with, "the thing", that is bothering me.. this is when i will feel like the world is crumpling down, creating dead ends and holes on the floor, leaving me nowhere to go... sometimes i c completely no open path... and when im stuck, i have no choice but to create my own path.. and when i do, the most disappointing thing is that when i try to create my own path, its either there is just no way to do it or that path is already being used by something else that is totally out of my concern... yes, i know... u have not a single clue about what im talking about.. i know u dont understand, and i dont care if you do or dont... its just how i feel... but still, whenever the world "shrinks" , i have to be strong and blow it back to its own size so i can explore more and find more answers.... the world, is a very unique place.. its the only planet that can support life.. and life, is a gift.. oops! goin off topic... who cares eyh? so yea.. i just know that i gotta be strong and keep thinking positive... sometimes i feel like im crushed by a big damn truck... or a ship... if i dont get out, i'll be trapped and die.. aint gona let that happen! so yea... im just 18..... i dont know how much more challenges, riddles, puzzles, gossips, pressures, obstacles and barriers that are coming up ahead.... looks like the game of life has to be played safely and cleverly till the very end to find out what "bonuses" we would get.. im super sorry if u have gone nuts reading this.................................. but what can i do........................

cant think of a title...

ok er...... this is my second post....

dont know dont care... 

but seriously, man if i keep doing this,

i'll kill myself reaaaaaal soon...

from the moment i woke up in the morning, (if u consider the afternoon as morning as well)

( 2.10 pm 18/10/2010 - 12.26 am 19/10/2010 )

right until NOW!! seriously! NOTHING!!!

God help me... i hate this kinda emptiness.. sitting in front

of the computer for the whole freakin day....

i dont mind actually, but if the computer has nothing but the internet,

its almost like nothing... 

and i dont know what kinda F*** up software screwed my laptop..

i shouldnt be spending my time here!! 

i should be in my room! in my sanctuary playing Silent Hill 3!!! ( for now )

ugh.............. man i duno when and how the hell am i gona cure my laptop...

if it aint done today ( 19/10/2010 ) then i think wont be done forever.. 

so imma do it today.... if no then go to hell :) 

thats all for now... more stories of my screwed up life later.... 

er............... random?

Rabiatul Aqillah dips herself in honey syrup with white chocolate chunks...
Aimi Syairah joins her but brings along some rabbits.....
then they had fun and Mr. Krabs tipped them over...
they chased Mr. Krabs.. he ran for his life while laughing....
Aimi fell down.. Aqillah helped her..... Aimi said forget it... Aqillah said fine...
they cleaned themselves... and then went outside... and then they saw iron man...
and then Aimi waved... iron man waved back... and he hit a tree.... Aqillah laughed...
iron man burst into flames... both startled... shivered.. petrified....
Aimi said: "tu lah... gelakkan org lagi -.- " ...... Aqillah had no words..
suddenly a big bird caught Aqillah and took her somewhere.. Aimi chased the bird...
and grew wings.... and she flew... followed the bird... the bird took Aqillah to its two story bungalow
in Bangi..... the bird offered some milk and cookies... they enjoyed... then flew home.........
-The End-